Sunday Weigh In

Okay, here’s the tough part, putting my number out there. I’ve never told the truth to a soul about my weight except doctors when they have to weigh me due to my yearly checkup. I have my own sort of denial, “if I don’t say it out loud it doesn’t exist.” Well that’s changing, because my weight does exist and I can’t keep acting like it’s not there. Because when its not there, I don’t work to make my life better.

So here it goes: Sunday January 22, 2012 my current weight for all to read is 243 pounds.

There, I said it. It’s out there in the world and seeing it now posted, published and irrevocably written now makes me accountable. Now is the time to change.

I took my first steps toward a healthier life today. Yay! Not only have I admitted to myself and everyone else my secret number, but today instead of driving to my boyfriend’s house, I walked. Today I walked 2 miles, which may not seem like a lot to some. But for someone who’s never been a very active person, it was a great feat. And I’ve never felt better. I can’t wait to get home from work tomorrow and throw on my running shoes and go out for another walk.

This is it; I’m done being 243 pounds. I’m done being unhealthy. And I’m done being unhappy. Today I took a great leap toward my ultimate goal.

Woo hoo!

New Year, New Me

Every year I, like so many others, make a resolution to make myself better; a resolution to change all of the aspect of myself that I am unhappy with. And every year I never go through with my resolutions, and feel even worse about myself than when I started at the beginning of the year.

Well this year I’m determined to actually make a difference in my life.

One thing I want to change is my health. I want to be healthy! I’ve been a chubby girl all my life, but for the rest of my life I want to be a healthy girl. So resolution #1 : reach my healthy goal weight of 140. I realize that in a years time this may be a hard task to accomplish and I’m okay with not meeting it completely, but as long as I’m on the road to being healthy I’m okay with that.

I also want to be a more social person. As of right now I can be completely happy reading a good book, or creating a new piece of artwork. But in doing this I let my social life suffer, and being only 22, that’s not such a good thing. So resolution #2 : create and strengthen friendships.

As of right now, those are the two objectives high on my priority list. I’m sure as I continue to update you on my journey through my resolutions more will arise, but for now these are my main concerns.